Saturday, February 25, 2017

Maybe Better

This blog may have a life of it's own. The occasional return of thoughts that may still be mine alone. Or maybe there is something more created here. What it is... is not exactly clear. Maybe it's up to you to decide when you define what comes out of the blue.

Out of the blue is where you find me
when I want a simple high
out of the blue may just remind me
that I still don't want to die
out of the blue, what does it tell you?
can be make it on our own?
of course we can if we want to but
do you really want to be alone?

I don't know about you, but I miss the bliss of a kiss.

Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives

it could be a peck on the cheek
a simple closeness we might never speak
it could be just blown in the wind
a distance closeness to remember where we've been

it does not have to lead to more
it does not have to be the end
it can remember innocence
it can be comfort from a friend

why are you so afraid?
what plans have your mind made?
why do you read so much
into a simple touch?

of skin
maybe you fear
what you hold in

Don't you know that you define what it takes... and what it gives?
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives

so yes it could be a deep dark abyss
where emotions simmer like lava ready to erupt at any time
and yes it could be the heavenly bliss
where happy ever after beings the final rhyme

and yes it could be even more than this
for everything we want and miss
lives in a kiss

if you could only be honest and share
if you could only see you're better when you care
if you could only accept it for just what it is
there is no end to what it takes or what it gives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives

And maybe that is why so many fear the touch
lips are so sensitive, lips can feel so much
and maybe that is why so many eat or cry or live a lie
hiding what they miss without the kiss - letting love die

don't give up, you can still try
learn caring is the highest high
it gives birds wings it gives fish fins
it is where everything worth anything begins
There is no end to what it takes or what it gives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives
Kiss is where love lives

Friday, November 25, 2016

Better Days (Song of Silence)

I wish I had more positive news
and a more positive perspective
but I am not making my wishes
come true to well these days

Maybe I am just paying some dues
or simply lost somewhere reflective
but life is far from auspicious
and a song of silence plays

I don't want to be depressing
and I still laugh a lot
even as I complain I still
appreciate what I've got

I don't want to be disappointed
I should not have expected more
accepting life as it is may be
what we are living for

Still a voice inside me scratches
at the corner of my heart
it tells me to raise my standards
and not settle in my art

It tells me to trust my instincts
and to reach for what is real
I may be wrong, but does it matter
if this is how I feel?

My feelings are as valid as yours
The world is hiding behind doors
Afraid to share love honestly
and I am not satisfied

So I will ask for more from you
and giving more is what I'll do
to my own self I shall be true
until the day I die
that is how I get high

So I wish I had more positive news
and a more positive perspective
but I am not making my wishes
come true to well these days

Maybe I am just paying some dues
or simply lost somewhere reflective
but life is far from auspicious
and a song of silence plays

Still I will not give up on me or you
no matter what anyone says
I will not give up on love that's true
and making better days
We will make better days

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

See The Rainbows

it is so hard for me to trust someone these days
one after another I find another who betrays
still I put myself in positions where I test someone's trust
seems I will not give up trying to find someone - or bust
here comes another bust

into every live a little rain must fall
a metaphor for tears that goes back many years
it happens to a heart that really gives it all
that may be why so many choose to give in to fears

and I wanted to understand
why people do that
I wanted to comprehend
the fear of love

so I give all my love
and trust people to care
I don't know why they don't
that leads to despair

it's the most beautiful feeling we can know
unconditional trust and honest love
it is what people seek in gods and how flowers grow
it is right here on Earth, not somewhere high above

we need to stand up to the rain
and dare to risk the pain
and give ourselves a chance to feel
true love is the realest real

we need to realize what life is for
don't let fear stop us anymore
we need to overcome our fears
and see the rainbows... through our tears

another bust, another betrayal
another loss, another fail
but will I put my heart in jail?
No ... No ... No
I raise my sail...

and sing
into every live a little rain must fall
a metaphor for tears that goes back many years
it happens to a heart that really gives it all
that may be why so many choose to give in to fears

I won't go, I won't go, I won't go

for it's
it's the most beautiful feeling we can know
unconditional trust and honest love
it is what people seek in gods and how flowers grow
it is right here on Earth, not somewhere high above

we need to stand up to the rain
and dare to risk the pain
and give ourselves a chance to feel
true love is the realest real

we need to realize what life is for
don't let fear stop us anymore
we need to overcome our fears
and see the rainbows... through our tears

Friday, May 6, 2016

The Gift

woke up, just laid in bed
went back to sleep a few times
nothing to do, but still not dead
so maybe i'll just dream of rhymes

and sometimes it is relaxing
and sometimes it is worrisome
and sometimes it is so taxing
to sleep too long, to become numb . . .


woke up, got out of bed
played some Ruzzle to wake my head
though about what to do next
played some Words with Friends instead

and sometimes it is relaxing
and sometimes it is a let down
and sometimes it is so taxing
to play too long, nothing gets done
a smile can become a frown . . .


woke up, got out of bed
just checked my text messages
saw what my best friend had said
remembered time passages

she asked me why I do not sleep at night
I started to get a little uptight
then I answered her with a rhyme
and suddenly as if I saw the light
and everything just seemed to be alright
yes everything was alright

I told her

Every day is good for me because I am alive
Even when I am depressed it's good
Cuz I am feeling and not numb, I know I'll survive
I'd explain it better if I could

I love the roller coaster of emotions
That is what this life is all about
From the calm to the scary commotions
Even when it seems I'm full of doubt

Even when I cry alone late at night
Even when I beg someone to save me
Deep inside I know everything's alright
Cuz I still have the gift this life gave me

The chance to breathe another breath
The chance to find out what comes next
A moment can change everything
That's all I need to know

To get up and take one more step
And realize I'm not done yet
Right now I can do anything
I am the star of my show
I decide where I should go
The wind is me and I can blow
And all I need to know

is...

The chance to breathe another breath
The chance to find out what comes next
A moment can change everything
That's all I need to know

This is all I need to know
To make it all good
I would explain it better
If I could . . .


So I woke up, got out of bed
and shook the cobwebs from me head
remembering I'm not yet dead
remembering the words I said

Yes I got up, took one more step
And realized I'm not done yet
Right now I can do anything
I am the star of my show
I decide where I should go
I am the wind and I can blow!
And all I need to know

I've got

The chance to breathe another breath
The chance to find out what comes next
A moment can change everything
That's all I need to know
I've got...

The chance to breathe another breath
The chance to find out what comes next
A moment can change everything
That's all I need to know...
to enjoy the show.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

party moods

so the party moods
come right out of the blue
and it's nothing new
but it surprises me every time

I just need to remember

september, october
november, december
just need to remember
remember, remember
remember remember

how to find the party
that is always going on
somewhere in my head
something I said
I am not dead yet
no, still not dead

the highs are always just a breath away
the lows are just a death away
no matter what we do or say
the show will go on
and the music will play
and this truth will stay
no matter how low it gets today
the highs are just a breath away

and it's a wonderful feeling
to know there's no ceiling
and all the emotion
is an infinite ocean
of laughter and tears
across all the years
embrace all the fears
and overcome them now
this is how

mixed in with all the dreams of love
and the fairy tales and whatever's above
there is something real
right here to feel
if you just remember
just remember
the words were said
inside your head
you're still not dead
no, still not dead

the highs are always just a breath away
the lows are just a death away
no matter what we do or say
the show will go on
and the music will play
and this truth will stay
no matter how low it gets today
the highs are just a breath away

and it's a wonderful feeling
to know there's no ceiling
and all the emotion
is an infinite ocean
of laughter and tears
across all the years
embrace all the fears
and overcome them now
this is how

just remember this
a kiss is just a kiss
awareness suddenly appears
as emotion without fears
and you see rainbows through your tears

and the highs are always just a breath away
the lows are just a death away
no matter what we do or say
the show will go on
and the music will play
and this truth will stay
no matter how low it gets today
the highs are just a breath away

right out of the blue
nothing new

Saturday, November 7, 2015

the way out of the blue

remember when the beatles sang love love love all you need is love, love, love, have you known true love, love, love do you dream of love, love love... still?...

well i do...

and i could write a song for every dream of love i've known
reality has not lasted as long
now finding someone who i want to trust leaves me alone
and a lonely love song just seems wrong

for love is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

love is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

so if you ever find yourself giving up on reaching out
ask yourself if you really want to die
if you tell yourself you can live without what life's about
then you're not living life, you're living a lie

for love is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

love is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

don't give up
don't fade away
don't give up
start again today
you can come out of your darkness
your closet or your hole
you can open your heart
and save your soul

for life is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

life is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

and you can write a song for every dream of love you've known
even reality has not lasted as long
now if when you think of love you think you'd rather be alone
think a lonely love song just seems wrong

so if you think it's over
if all your hope seems gone
you still have a choice to make
give up or carry on

and if you want to give up
there's just one thing to do
repeat it over and over again
until you know it's true

love is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

love is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

love is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

love is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

peace comes from knowing this is true
hope is the way out of the blue
it's no secret, the heart always knew
and i hope you do too
i hope you will do what's good for you

for love is about sharing
trusting and caring
it's not about fearing
fear will leave you blue

and love is about healing
believing and feeling
it is about revealing
the true you in you

Monday, August 10, 2015

Rilke and you

it was midnight in another dream and a new letter was inspired...

Rilke and you, of course... once again you reach deeper into me than I wanted anyone to unless they were sitting beside me with arms wide open to hold me as I fall apart, trusting me to come back together as I always do... surviving the infinite abyss of endless desire... alone... the secret is...

it is not true love unless it scares you

(and then a song breaks out)



my lips have almost forgotten what desire means
for so long I've been missing my love
torn from my heart, breaking all my dreams
wounds like this are meant to always bleed
silently the moon cries every night
buried in subway halls
burned in airports
why do you think they call them terminals

and she loved it when I sang, I sang
if it takes forever, I will wait for you
and did I know that she was hearing
I will always love you

and when promising to love
until the end of time
do we really believe time can not end?

meanwhile, deep inside my this heart I know as my own...

I still mourn the loss of my first true love
a void so feared, an abyss so immense
thirty years have not diminished it's power to consume my passion
would a million?
three decades have not reduced it's intensity
time does not effect the inspiration I so fear
and still am so drawn to it
I live for it
and I would die to feel it
just one more time
again

today I live to embrace one who understands the need
one who will drink the blood of wounds meant to always bleed
one who will drink the tears of eyes meant always to cry
one who will find the child inside who knows the natural high
always laughing at the clouds
always waking up reborn
smiling from within the storm
feeling the peaceful eye
seeing through the pointless fears
seeing the rainbow through the tears

for you who understands
I reach out to warm your hands